The spirit tells the same message faithfully, even through us
imperfect beings. I got to watch the christmas devotional talk here from
Elder Bednar on the character of Christ. It was so inspiring! The
natural man thinks inwardly, while Christ always acted and thought
outwardly, I am focusing on adopting that into my every action. This week was amazing. I never understood the gift of tongues until
now. I realized early that I myself can't learn this language
sufficient to communicate. I'll be studying so hard and it just doesn't
stick! Everything fades out of my memory so fast. But most of our
preparation and study is actually focused on preparing to teach
investigators lessons. As I focus on their needs, even though they
aren't really investigating the church, the spirit still speaks to my
heart, because they are playing the roles of real people they know. When
teaching, Chinese just comes to me. Principles and vocabulary just
flood into my mind. I thought I'd only realize this gift out in the
field! It's helping my learning so much. It was so frustrating at first
because I had all these impressions that I wanted to share, but there
were no words for them. Diligent study and obedience is binding the
Lord to my work. He is so merciful to me, I just cannot believe it most
of the time! It's still really hard to learn, but the Lord is doing
wonders and miracles, and it's giving me hope. It's crazy how busy I am! Every second of these three months cannot
be wasted! There are too many souls at stake that I am accountable for
that I cannot bear to lose because I didn't do my best. I feel the
adrenaline of getting up onto the highbar at a meet before a lesson, and
then the spirit guides me, and I feel like I stuck the landing! I
reaaaally miss doing gymnastics, and there's a bunch of missionaries
that do handstands all the time and it makes me laugh! Some even do
standing backs :O but I don't want to risk hurting myself AT ALL.
There are tons of missionaries in crutchs!
I'm sure you can imagine the reaction to Pres Monson's announcement
on Saturday. At first I was like, Why now?? I could've left sooner! But
then the spirit bore witness to my heart that things worked out for the
very best for me, because I was willing to submit to the will of the
Father. What a blessing, what an exciting time! I feel so excited to be a
missionary!
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